Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide like a scared little boy. I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure. So here's to everything coming down to nothing. Here's to silence that cuts me to the core. Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore.
Taylor Swift, man. Good music. Haha. I was like in the goddamn kitchen for friggin 8 hours! Thas' longer than a school day my dearrs. I made candy and a peach cobbler. The candy I'm never making again, the peach cobbler is a must. (x Haha. It was hella good, except less butter more peaches next time. Hellyeah. I made salsa and chicken skewers, too. When I'm old and wrinkly like my mah, I'll cook for my kids and say younggens, eat this sht and tell me it's good. :D Haha. I think Xierieney is PMSing at age 6. She's always so mad. Her face is so ugly. It's hilarious. Lost and insecure, you found me. You found me lying on the floor, surrounded, surrouned. Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you. Just a little late, you found me. You found me. I probably played that song for the whole 8 hours of kitchen time. Man, oh man. Hombre, ay hombre.
It'd be nice this year to start anew you know? Get rid of all the bitterness and sht in me, 'cause trust me, there's a lot. I just want it all gone. I wna feel fresh, not weighed down by the whole 2008. Things pile up you know? I don't know, but I swear taking all of this with me to a new start is just gna junk pile up. I gotta make change and just stop it with everything. I remember long time ago, I just thought it'd be easier to get outta here. Hating on school and everyone, it showed and I didn't care. I got over it. I can get over anything, yeah? People piss me off so much though. I have like no tolerance for anyone, unless you're highly important to me with an exception of family. Xierieney could use a slap in the face I swear. That child as the attitude of a mad cow, gawddammit.
Asia, I love that you spend time with Kenny. It makes you happy, so why wouldn't I want you happy? Like sometimes of course I miss you, but it doesn't mean that I hate when you're always with Kenny. You're my best friend and I know you'll always be there for me when I need you. I don't own you literally, FLY! FLY TO KENNY DANG! Haha, dammit if you don't read this I'ma kick you. -_-
1-"So Aleks, any guys lately?" 2-"Nah." 1-"How come?" 3-"Cause guys are assholes." 1-"Yeah, they are." 2-"So, true."
I hate those chills when you're not even cold. You're just sitting there and BAM! chilllllll. o_o I like the creek at Penetencia. It smells, it's polluted, it's deep in areas, BUT it's calming and secluded. Nobody chills there, except sometimes kids at nighttime that drink and smoke. Rofl. Dogs snore so much. I swear. So do little 6-year-old girls. I love Joshua Radin. He's awesome. Yeup yeup. Now I have nothing to say. Personal talk is creepy 'cause I know lowlives might read this sht. Haha.
My hair looked nice today. It waved in places I wanted it to waves. I'ma grow my hair out long. I miss it in a way. Then I'ma chop it all off again. Yeup yeup. My face is clearing up. Go Benzaclin. I hope it continues to work, unlike everything else I've used. Sht, the United States Postage thing looks like 007. o_o
HAPPY NEW YEARS! 2009 BABYYY.
Survveyy:
Age turned this year? 15
Best memory? Personal.
Worst memory? Two of 'em.
Did you stay in a relationship? Haha, funny that.
Great people you met? A few, all really great.
Longest road trip? San Diego to Vegas then back. Boring much?
Best place visited? Nowhere this year.
Worst place visited? Your bed.
Earned any new names? Hmmm.
Biggest challenge this year? A few.
How many moving violations? Huh?
How many parking tickets did you get? Nada.
How many subjects did you take? SIX.
What were your grades? 4.0 Bitch.
Did you moon a cop? Immature.
New best friend? Good times.
Person you wish you became closer to? Gawd forbid.
Any awards? Noo?
Did you sleep through your alarm? Got yelled at constantly for that.
Did you lose or gain weight? I think I'm the same.
What do you hope for 2009? Gift.
New love for food? New hate for food.
Kiss anyone? My lips are virginized.
Dance in the rain? Ran in it.
Have you changed? Biggo time.
How was your birthday? Got yelled at actually.
Any snow this year? Not hurrz.
Did you lose any family members? Yeup, but I barely knew 'em.
Did you disappoint anyone close? Too many people to count, especially a few special ones.
Did you sleep under the stars? F'in colddd outt there.
Pretend to be happy? No one ever believed me.
Did you keep your new years resolution? Probably not.
Did you leave the country? Sadly I did not.
Are you moving in the new year? Nah.
Did you lose anything expensive? TOTALLY. :/
Learn anything new about yourself? Nothing new, just caught my attention moreso.
Found out who your true friends were? Big time.
Made a change in your life? No joke.
Did you stay up till sunrise? Hella times.
Do anything you regret? Too many.
Go to any parties? Surrizle.
Gain any new family members? I think so...
End up in hospital? Nope.
Did anyone develop feelings for you? Asking me?
Favorite day of the year? None.
Least favorite day of the year? A couple.
Was 2008 a great year, an average year or a bad year? It was my down in the dumps year.
Where were you when everything was falling apart? All my days spent by the telephone, that never rang. All I needed was a call, that never came. I'm truly madly deeply in love, with that song.
31.12.08
30.12.08
Come Together
I have not gone one week since the end of September in which I did not blog. My blog could've been one sentenced, but I still blogged. Amazing. The Beatles are good. Well, I've got some reading to do, so update this lattteee.
Ohkay, so like I hella cleaned the stove like crazy at Turrett. Like f'real, I have no idea how some people could live like that. After going through the teenage stage of my life, I'm probably gna become some clean freak like my mah. Oh geez. Cinnamon Toast Crunch is a fabulous munchie. Rofl. OMG, ohkay so last time me and my mommy were at Safeway, we were like WTF, where the hell is al llll l the garlic bread. THEY ALWAYS RUN OUT, yeah? So then like when we got there, as usual there was no more left. So happens, I walk by to get some cheese like after 15 minutes and my loveely there are some, sitting waiting for me to snatch 'em. Like 6 were put out and I of course took one and placed it happily into the cart. (We haven't made chili in fo'evah 'cause I can't eat chili without the garlic bread) And I'm like FINALLY! YAY CHILI! I've missed my chili and garlic bread addiction. And I was like "Mommy, want another one? It's like a dollar I think" and we ended up buying 3. Haha. Funnnay. Or, it was funny at the moment. I really should get to reading for Espanol. Damn Girl is a good song. All-American Rejects are gna be making mucho moolah off their new album. It's good.
LATER.
Ohkay, so like I hella cleaned the stove like crazy at Turrett. Like f'real, I have no idea how some people could live like that. After going through the teenage stage of my life, I'm probably gna become some clean freak like my mah. Oh geez. Cinnamon Toast Crunch is a fabulous munchie. Rofl. OMG, ohkay so last time me and my mommy were at Safeway, we were like WTF, where the hell is al llll l the garlic bread. THEY ALWAYS RUN OUT, yeah? So then like when we got there, as usual there was no more left. So happens, I walk by to get some cheese like after 15 minutes and my loveely there are some, sitting waiting for me to snatch 'em. Like 6 were put out and I of course took one and placed it happily into the cart. (We haven't made chili in fo'evah 'cause I can't eat chili without the garlic bread) And I'm like FINALLY! YAY CHILI! I've missed my chili and garlic bread addiction. And I was like "Mommy, want another one? It's like a dollar I think" and we ended up buying 3. Haha. Funnnay. Or, it was funny at the moment. I really should get to reading for Espanol. Damn Girl is a good song. All-American Rejects are gna be making mucho moolah off their new album. It's good.
LATER.
29.12.08
Peach Cobbler
is extremely yummy. I'ma go make some this week.
I think it's fascinating how sites *coughcough YOUTUBE *cough would ask if we would like to watch a video, which of course proveides it, in normal quality or high quality. I, the high achiever, would appreciate the high quality over normal any day, if given the opportunity. Thank the Lord, my mommy is finally buying a new blender. I like cooking. It's fun. I would include baking, but there's a few people who'd have my ass for saying "I LOVE TO BAKE." Ahh, too late. Aww, a 3-year-old singing the National Anthem. Haha, how cute, He has the Southern accent too. Adorable. Man, I'm teaching my kid how to sing. I'ma have 3 strikes. One of 'em is playing guitar. (x Hahaha. Oh this was terrible. I had an Ashlee Simpson phase. I loved her, wanted to dress like her. Gawd, that was terrible too. -_- I like her hair still though. You gotta love Katy Perry for trying live. I have had so much leche flan, it's driving me nuts. Lily Allens is awesome.
Ohkay, so I had the most retardest dream. You don't wna hear about it though, it'll just make your roll your eyes and sigh 'cause it's one of those "I've heard it all before, SHUT UP Gawddammit" kinda dreams. Thank goodness for laxatives. Spike someones drink or food. Haha, neverrr take food from someone you don't trust. (; Haha. Smilllleeee. I love when British people say, "little", it sounds sexy. Haha. Everyone deserves a look once. I dub it "look once theory" Everyone deserves to be looked at from the point of view where you don't know the details. You see what is, and nothing more, not the inside story, not the past, or what truly is. Just for a tad second, 'cause when you do, everything looks perfect. That made no sense, ahh, when does anything have to make sense.
Flirtacious disses. (x Love that song. Oddly, half my blogs I say something about an awesome song. How, lowlife. My life isn't surrounded by music. I don't even showah or sleep with music on that often anymore. I swear, thas' all bad. -_- Ikid Ikid. Silence is golden. Trust me. Noise gets tiring. Music is noise, never said all noise is bad. Christina Ricci's face is the definition of the heart-shaped face. Yet...no magazine ever uses it for example when talking about hairstyles. I mean, for goodness sakes, she has a 6-finger forehead and has the tiniest chin. Don't mind my comments, she's gorgeous. I remember her in Addams Family. Man, she was creepy. Ashton Kutcher was lovely in the movie A Lot Like Love well not in the beginning part with his kid-like hair-do. Haha, I was watching it the other day.
My mom's home. Time to go ouut. Laterrr.
I think it's fascinating how sites *coughcough YOUTUBE *cough would ask if we would like to watch a video, which of course proveides it, in normal quality or high quality. I, the high achiever, would appreciate the high quality over normal any day, if given the opportunity. Thank the Lord, my mommy is finally buying a new blender. I like cooking. It's fun. I would include baking, but there's a few people who'd have my ass for saying "I LOVE TO BAKE." Ahh, too late. Aww, a 3-year-old singing the National Anthem. Haha, how cute, He has the Southern accent too. Adorable. Man, I'm teaching my kid how to sing. I'ma have 3 strikes. One of 'em is playing guitar. (x Hahaha. Oh this was terrible. I had an Ashlee Simpson phase. I loved her, wanted to dress like her. Gawd, that was terrible too. -_- I like her hair still though. You gotta love Katy Perry for trying live. I have had so much leche flan, it's driving me nuts. Lily Allens is awesome.
Ohkay, so I had the most retardest dream. You don't wna hear about it though, it'll just make your roll your eyes and sigh 'cause it's one of those "I've heard it all before, SHUT UP Gawddammit" kinda dreams. Thank goodness for laxatives. Spike someones drink or food. Haha, neverrr take food from someone you don't trust. (; Haha. Smilllleeee. I love when British people say, "little", it sounds sexy. Haha. Everyone deserves a look once. I dub it "look once theory" Everyone deserves to be looked at from the point of view where you don't know the details. You see what is, and nothing more, not the inside story, not the past, or what truly is. Just for a tad second, 'cause when you do, everything looks perfect. That made no sense, ahh, when does anything have to make sense.
Flirtacious disses. (x Love that song. Oddly, half my blogs I say something about an awesome song. How, lowlife. My life isn't surrounded by music. I don't even showah or sleep with music on that often anymore. I swear, thas' all bad. -_- Ikid Ikid. Silence is golden. Trust me. Noise gets tiring. Music is noise, never said all noise is bad. Christina Ricci's face is the definition of the heart-shaped face. Yet...no magazine ever uses it for example when talking about hairstyles. I mean, for goodness sakes, she has a 6-finger forehead and has the tiniest chin. Don't mind my comments, she's gorgeous. I remember her in Addams Family. Man, she was creepy. Ashton Kutcher was lovely in the movie A Lot Like Love well not in the beginning part with his kid-like hair-do. Haha, I was watching it the other day.
My mom's home. Time to go ouut. Laterrr.
28.12.08
Mick, Mick, Mickity Mick.
He has a new case. It works well.
I turned my mom into a camera whore, and she won't let me youtube a video of her terrible singing. How sucky. I have Law and Order to watch and Blue Eyes is an awesome song. I should go find me a guy with the most gorgeous blue eyes to get lost in. HAHAHAHA. Man, that was good. Hahahaha. Wow. I think sometimes I have an odd sense of humor. Apparently my Auntie Bambi has a blogger, interesante.
" 'Cause blueee eyes, I just wna sing a song with you," preferably, a cute song. Droplets would be a sad song to sing with a significant other, don't you think? I let my mommy listen to tagolog rap and she was jammin' away. You gotta love the Cambas. They can entertain you fo' houuuurs. Man, I haven't blogged this much in a while. I should start vlogging. It's pretty fun. You may think you sound crazy, but I swear, at least one person in the world will find you quite the entertainment. Haha, even sitting there silently would entertain somebody 'cause they'll start laughing at your stupidness for putting up a video of you just sitting their silently. That better not be just me, or else I do have an odd sense of humor. Hershey is warming up my legs. He's been sleeping in my lap for probably about the past 30 minutes. I really do have Law and Order to get to and Xierieney is either falling asleep or waiting impaciently. Ahh, my deed has been done. The Notebook has been fed into Mick.
The heat is going, my socks are on, my shorts are hiked, my hair flung up high, and it's time for me to it the sacccc. Late.
I turned my mom into a camera whore, and she won't let me youtube a video of her terrible singing. How sucky. I have Law and Order to watch and Blue Eyes is an awesome song. I should go find me a guy with the most gorgeous blue eyes to get lost in. HAHAHAHA. Man, that was good. Hahahaha. Wow. I think sometimes I have an odd sense of humor. Apparently my Auntie Bambi has a blogger, interesante.
" 'Cause blueee eyes, I just wna sing a song with you," preferably, a cute song. Droplets would be a sad song to sing with a significant other, don't you think? I let my mommy listen to tagolog rap and she was jammin' away. You gotta love the Cambas. They can entertain you fo' houuuurs. Man, I haven't blogged this much in a while. I should start vlogging. It's pretty fun. You may think you sound crazy, but I swear, at least one person in the world will find you quite the entertainment. Haha, even sitting there silently would entertain somebody 'cause they'll start laughing at your stupidness for putting up a video of you just sitting their silently. That better not be just me, or else I do have an odd sense of humor. Hershey is warming up my legs. He's been sleeping in my lap for probably about the past 30 minutes. I really do have Law and Order to get to and Xierieney is either falling asleep or waiting impaciently. Ahh, my deed has been done. The Notebook has been fed into Mick.
The heat is going, my socks are on, my shorts are hiked, my hair flung up high, and it's time for me to it the sacccc. Late.
27.12.08
TWN
Wow, the power of technology, and the unfairness of mother nature.
Know less, hurts less.
Damn, now I feel heckka bad.
clickity click
Fascinating how everything has to have a scientific explanation, such as why humans are so emotional.
Know less, hurts less.
Damn, now I feel heckka bad.
clickity click
Fascinating how everything has to have a scientific explanation, such as why humans are so emotional.
26.12.08
You knooww?
Catch and Release! Haha.
"I depended on him too, look where it got me".
Spent until two in the morning watching that and I only got halfway.
"I depended on him too, look where it got me".
Spent until two in the morning watching that and I only got halfway.
25.12.08
Merrry Christmas
Man, gotta ruin my day. You just gotta ruin my day, more than you already have. And the thing is, you don't have to do much. Ridiculous. 'Cause most def it wasn't aimed for me. Nevvvah aimed for me. It was never okay. Argh, if this is how I am now, I don't even wna imagine myself like grandma. I'ma be losing it like 20x more.
23.12.08
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIADdtY9pQA
Sitting here, on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Say you feel the way I do
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Say you feel the way I do
22.12.08
Bolting Blue
is a very pretty color. I've been awake for an hour and I'm completely bored. I can't just lay on my bed and not move, unless I'm sleeping of course. But f'real, I should be sleeping...sht. Christmas is coming, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas? Hellnah, doesn't feel a bit like Christmas. I'm hungry, but I don't want to eat.
I've eaten probably 4 cuties, there fruits so it's all good. I'ma probably go run for an hour.
Ho Ho Hopefully<3
You gotta love Wikipedia and the world's awkward chasing coincidences.
Gots some goals to go over.
Thank God for the upcoming new year, this one needs an end.
I've eaten probably 4 cuties, there fruits so it's all good. I'ma probably go run for an hour.
Ho Ho Hopefully<3
You gotta love Wikipedia and the world's awkward chasing coincidences.
Gots some goals to go over.
Thank God for the upcoming new year, this one needs an end.
18.12.08
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4.12.08
Penelope
is one of the awesomest movies ever.
"It's not the power of the curse - it's the power you give the curse"
So I shall rephrase that for my own being.
"It's not the power of the curse - it's the power you give the curse"
So I shall rephrase that for my own being.
It wasn't the immensity of the situation, it was the immensity that I gave the situation.
2.12.08
30.11.08
It's worth it
brothers. It's worth it friends. To know your maker, to lose your sins. Do you know that you are dearly loved.
PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.
Interesting weekend.
Ohkay, so I've had reoccuring dreams, what people may call nightmares. I don't consider them nightmares. I shall deem them to be the desires that I never want to happen. Odd, I know.
We went out to eat PF CHANGS. My grandma was like "I can't read the menu, it's too dark in here. In the car my grandmas (yes, plural) were talkin' bout how the back to the future ride was like a plane diving. How old that makes them seem. That ride gave me a headache tho. I'm in love with Wikki Stix. They're the best. Happy Birthday to my dad. &I could use a drink... of water!
I made myself a ring outta one of these.
PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.
Interesting weekend.
Ohkay, so I've had reoccuring dreams, what people may call nightmares. I don't consider them nightmares. I shall deem them to be the desires that I never want to happen. Odd, I know.
We went out to eat PF CHANGS. My grandma was like "I can't read the menu, it's too dark in here. In the car my grandmas (yes, plural) were talkin' bout how the back to the future ride was like a plane diving. How old that makes them seem. That ride gave me a headache tho. I'm in love with Wikki Stix. They're the best. Happy Birthday to my dad. &I could use a drink... of water!
I made myself a ring outta one of these.
29.11.08
25.11.08
Cool Like That
I'm chill like that. I'm like re-attached to the song: Where is the love? Haha.
I LOVE THIS SONG:
The Waves and the Both of Us - Charlotte Sometimes
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt
But I can't wait forever, boy
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my waist
There's no need to wait
I want the dance of the air
Run your hands through my hair
Releasing your breath
As I undress
But I can't wait forever, boy
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
Ohkay, so... my realization for the past 15 years:I'm just tryna keep my head up, baby.
1. I have too much pride
-No, I do not know what I have to be proud 'bout
2. I need to work on "skills"
3. Soften my heart
4. Pretty much, all in all-I need to gain humility
I LOVE THIS SONG:
The Waves and the Both of Us - Charlotte Sometimes
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt
But I can't wait forever, boy
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my waist
There's no need to wait
I want the dance of the air
Run your hands through my hair
Releasing your breath
As I undress
But I can't wait forever, boy
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me
23.11.08
Right Now (Na Na Na)
I just realized...grandma and grandpa are coming T O MOORO W.
Watched Twilight yesterday, it suckedx9876543210
My dogs got shaven
I'm sleep
Watched Twilight yesterday, it suckedx9876543210
My dogs got shaven
I'm sleep
20.11.08
Girl .mp 3
Bitch, don't fool yourself. You better realize this is life and you can't erase a tiny bit in the past. Tiny bits always come back to bite you in the ass. Keep your damn promises, especially the big ones. I'm one for being lenient, but thas' too cold for me.
You too. Don't make promises you know you'll never keep. They may mean nothing to you, but they meant a whole deal to me.
Like my gorgeous butterfly? Yes I damn right colored that shit.
You too. Don't make promises you know you'll never keep. They may mean nothing to you, but they meant a whole deal to me.
Like my gorgeous butterfly? Yes I damn right colored that shit.
19.11.08
It's like
one of those moments. The ones where you're no longer in your body, but you're not outside of it watching the view. You're there, but not there at the same time.
18.11.08
Dead and Gone
by T.I. feat. Justin Timberlake and Girl by Epik High have the same beat.
It's 10 45 and I'm currently watching Law and Order.
This is ridiculous. R------'s are following me wherever I go. They're on television shows. Books. Teacher's talk about 'em. They're all over the place. I'm being haunted by my past. It's not like you hear, see, talk 'bout filipinos everywhere. Ohmygawddd and all that is holy, Elliot got shot.
What a fu'in biter. Beat 'em.
It's 10 45 and I'm currently watching Law and Order.
This is ridiculous. R------'s are following me wherever I go. They're on television shows. Books. Teacher's talk about 'em. They're all over the place. I'm being haunted by my past. It's not like you hear, see, talk 'bout filipinos everywhere. Ohmygawddd and all that is holy, Elliot got shot.
What a fu'in biter. Beat 'em.
17.11.08
Where is the love?
I just took like 8 aspirins and they haven't kicked in yet. Cheap drugs never heal the pain. How lame.
According to WordNet, love can be described in words; love is a strong positive emotion of regard and affection, it is an object of warm devotion, a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction, a beloved person, sexual activities between people.
Fascinating how simple that is?
I don't understand any of my homework. Everyone could use a paramour.
According to WordNet, love can be described in words; love is a strong positive emotion of regard and affection, it is an object of warm devotion, a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction, a beloved person, sexual activities between people.
Fascinating how simple that is?
I don't understand any of my homework. Everyone could use a paramour.
16.11.08
Benny and the Jets
Talking is so much faster that typing.
I bought new sheets. Light purple and regular purple sheets. Black and grey comforter. The awesomest. The comforter came with matching ACTUAL pillows. I need some of that woozy purple stuff.
15.11.08
Caramel Machiatto
Ohkay, currently I am at Asia's house. She drifted off into unconsciousness, supposedly, and I don't want to work on my journals. My topic is:
ASIA WOKE UP! LATE. :D
What was the most frightening experience of your life? Describe where you were and who you were with. What happened? Were you different after the experience, did it change you?The problem with his journal topics is that they have to be at least a half a page long. So long, don't you agree?
ASIA WOKE UP! LATE. :D
13.11.08
Moan
The tomato ketchup is upside down and staring at me. I painted my nails a nice dark blue nail polish, but because they are dark, they look black. TREE WATERING was today, but apparently nobody really goes and it was boring, hot, and I wanted to go home.
We had spam today. Honestly, I have no idea how he could not like spam, or vienna sausage, or seafood for that matter. I mean, come on! You got to love sushi. Sushi, is just-it doesn't even need an explanation.
I want some more milk duds. After I run out, I will walk myself all the way to Longs, scavenge for Milk Duds, and snag the new Maybelline mascara. I heard it is quite wonderful. I saw the brush, nice------ is all I have to say.
Gawd, I've completely lost my mind. It's been over a month, and just all I have to say ugh. UGH! A BIGGER UGH! I will go on my search for more Milk Duds inside my Vans shoe box. I want new Vans.
One of these:
I'm really tired right now. I'm out of Milk Duds, apparently I need to do my Longs adventure very soon, most likely tomorrow.
We had spam today. Honestly, I have no idea how he could not like spam, or vienna sausage, or seafood for that matter. I mean, come on! You got to love sushi. Sushi, is just-it doesn't even need an explanation.
I want some more milk duds. After I run out, I will walk myself all the way to Longs, scavenge for Milk Duds, and snag the new Maybelline mascara. I heard it is quite wonderful. I saw the brush, nice------ is all I have to say.
Gawd, I've completely lost my mind. It's been over a month, and just all I have to say ugh. UGH! A BIGGER UGH! I will go on my search for more Milk Duds inside my Vans shoe box. I want new Vans.
One of these:
I'm really tired right now. I'm out of Milk Duds, apparently I need to do my Longs adventure very soon, most likely tomorrow.
11.11.08
...Smile
What a saddening comic.I'ma be up all night because I spent my 4-day-weekend doing absolutely nothing.
10.11.08
Into Your Arms
MY TO-DO LIST FOR THE DAY!
1. Sweep family room.
2. Sweep living room.
3. Wash red blanket.
4. Arreglar mi cuarto.
5. Shower.
6. Ask mi padre y mi madre.
7. Call Asia.
8. GO OUT! (HOPEFULLY)
1. Sweep family room.
2. Sweep living room.
3. Wash red blanket.
4. Arreglar mi cuarto.
5. Shower.
6. Ask mi padre y mi madre.
7. Call Asia.
8. GO OUT! (HOPEFULLY)
9.11.08
All Again For You
1. "...the truth hurts sometimes...so do lies, though" -Just Listen
2. "You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a good-bye at all."-The Truth About Forever
3. "There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater." -This Lullaby
4. "If someone is really close with your, your getting upset or them getting upset is okay, and they don't change because of it." -Just Listen
5. "Bad is not an absolute, but a relative term. Ask the robber who used the cash he stole to feed his infant; the rapist who was sexually abused as a child; the kidnapper who truly believed he was saving a life. And just because you break the law doesn't mean you have intentionally crossed the line into evil. Sometimes the line creeps up on you, and before you know it, you're standing on the other side." - Vanishing Acts
Moan. Cute is what we aim for.
2. "You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a good-bye at all."-The Truth About Forever
3. "There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater." -This Lullaby
4. "If someone is really close with your, your getting upset or them getting upset is okay, and they don't change because of it." -Just Listen
5. "Bad is not an absolute, but a relative term. Ask the robber who used the cash he stole to feed his infant; the rapist who was sexually abused as a child; the kidnapper who truly believed he was saving a life. And just because you break the law doesn't mean you have intentionally crossed the line into evil. Sometimes the line creeps up on you, and before you know it, you're standing on the other side." - Vanishing Acts
Moan. Cute is what we aim for.
6.11.08
ICY HOT
only sometimes works. I think it's just my icy hot. There's like a damn crack in the cap. Emergency, big time. I need to go back to that idiot indiano doktora. My knee is like in desperate need of some medical help. Oh well.
I had a blast today, sort of, in a way.
A TASTE OF THE AWKWARDNESS IN MY NON-SENSE LIFE.
I had a blast today, sort of, in a way.
A TASTE OF THE AWKWARDNESS IN MY NON-SENSE LIFE.
5.11.08
3.11.08
Spinning
"I'm going to miss your lips and everything attached to 'em"
Hahaha. Go Kristen Dunst.
Yes, I'm currently watching Elizabethtown.
I'm going to make hot chocolate, watch another movie, and check if I have any homework. I love my life.
Can you fill this out without lying? YES. Yes I can.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Flaming Hot Munchies
Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew? Haha, no.
Where was your default picture taken? It was take in my living room.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20? Mi hermana menor.
Can you play guitar hero? I can play it, just not well.
Last time you walked further than a block? The other day.
Name someone that made you laugh today? I don't know. I really don't.
When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends? Today.
How late did you stay up last night and why? 12 00, I was watchering television.
If you could move somewhere else, would you? In the blink of an eye. Get away from here.
Ever been kissed under fireworks? Nope.
Which of your friends lives closest to you? Jenn.
Do you believe ex's can be friends? Haha. Yes I do.
Do you like calling or texting better? Calling.
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper? I'm not a fan of Dr. Pepper. Diet or not.
When was the last time you cried really hard? That one day at church. 3
Where is your biological father right now? Parking his lazy ass on his bed.
Where are you at right now? Parking my lazy ass in front of the computer.
What bed did you sleep in last night? You mean 'Who's bed' and mine.
What was the last thing someone bought for you? My mommy bought me these Munchies.
Who took your profile picture? As in, my blog picture? That would be me.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? Me, Mel, Thi, & Asia.
Was yesterday better than today? They're equally crappy.
Can you live a day without TV? Yes I could.
Are you mad about anything? Yes I am.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? They're always worth it.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? Recently.
Are you a bad influence? I very well can be.
Night out or night in? Both.
Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person? Ahh, Both.
What items could you not go without during the day? H DOS O
Would you share a drink with a stranger? Nahh. The foold
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Wow, I don't remember.
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? They can pierce whatever they want, it's their body.
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire? I've tried.
What does the last text message in your inbox say? NOCELLULAR.
How do you feel about your life right now?
How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Once.
Do you hate anyone? Don't hate. Tolerate.
Do you talk dirty to people? Define dirty.
If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find? Phone inbox? Nothing.
Will you have a valentine this year? Next year you mean?, and probably not.
Last person you talked to on the phone? Mi madre.
Can you easily tell if someones fake? Usually.
How's your heart? Still beating.
Say you were given a drug test right now, Would you pass? Yes.
Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Yes.
What song is stuck in your head? Streets of Gold -NEEDTOBREATHE
Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? Someone with a perfect answer to why I should open the damn window for 'em.
Wanna have kids before you’re 30?: Yeup.
Name something you have to do tomorrow?: Brush my teeth.
Can you whistle?: Yes I can.
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back? My side or stomach.
What gets in your way of your sleeping? The thoughts of my jumbled up mind.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? Yes they are.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?: Yes sireee.
Do you think too much or too little?: Both. Way both.
Do you smile a lot?: I don't think I do.
Who was your last missed call on your cell phone? Psh psh, only losers have cell phones.
Whens the next time you will see the person you like?: I don't like anyone. Honest.
Are you happy with your life?: Not one bit. But I'll fix it, sooner or later.
Can you handle the truth? Probably not, but I can try.
Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?: Nope.
What was the last book you read?: Just Listen.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?: No.
Is there something you always wear? Undergarments my dear. They're a necessity.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?: Watching Elizabethtown.
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? Nobody. Gawd, not even my parents say that to me. How sad.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: I barely use the phone anymore.
Did you have an exciting last weekend? It was the fucking best weekend ever. Bite me.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yes I have.
Do you like yourself?: I love me.
Have you ever dyed your hair?: Nope.
Are you wearing a necklace?: Yes, yes I am.
Are you an emotional person?: I quite am actually.
What's something that can always make you feel better?: A good book.
Will this weekend be a good one?:I wish. I really really do.
What do you want right now?I want too much to name.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?:Yes I have.
Look behind you, what do you see?:AVOID IDENTITY THEFT. It's on a pamphlet.
Have you ever worked in a food place?Nope.
What would you name your future daughter?:EMMARAE. Actually, I don't know.
Any summer plans for 2009?:Uhm, I have no clue. MEXICO! Please. :D
Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?:Wake up. Shower. School. Sleep. Read. Homework. Sleep.
The last thing you heard?:"I just want you to know. I'm leaving to let you go" Does anyone know your Myspace password?:I think so. Probably.
Have you dated anyone on your top 8?:Nope.
Hahaha. Go Kristen Dunst.
Yes, I'm currently watching Elizabethtown.
I'm going to make hot chocolate, watch another movie, and check if I have any homework. I love my life.
Can you fill this out without lying? YES. Yes I can.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Flaming Hot Munchies
Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew? Haha, no.
Where was your default picture taken? It was take in my living room.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20? Mi hermana menor.
Can you play guitar hero? I can play it, just not well.
Last time you walked further than a block? The other day.
Name someone that made you laugh today? I don't know. I really don't.
When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends? Today.
How late did you stay up last night and why? 12 00, I was watchering television.
If you could move somewhere else, would you? In the blink of an eye. Get away from here.
Ever been kissed under fireworks? Nope.
Which of your friends lives closest to you? Jenn.
Do you believe ex's can be friends? Haha. Yes I do.
Do you like calling or texting better? Calling.
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper? I'm not a fan of Dr. Pepper. Diet or not.
When was the last time you cried really hard? That one day at church. 3
Where is your biological father right now? Parking his lazy ass on his bed.
Where are you at right now? Parking my lazy ass in front of the computer.
What bed did you sleep in last night? You mean 'Who's bed' and mine.
What was the last thing someone bought for you? My mommy bought me these Munchies.
Who took your profile picture? As in, my blog picture? That would be me.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? Me, Mel, Thi, & Asia.
Was yesterday better than today? They're equally crappy.
Can you live a day without TV? Yes I could.
Are you mad about anything? Yes I am.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? They're always worth it.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? Recently.
Are you a bad influence? I very well can be.
Night out or night in? Both.
Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person? Ahh, Both.
What items could you not go without during the day? H DOS O
Would you share a drink with a stranger? Nahh. The foold
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Wow, I don't remember.
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? They can pierce whatever they want, it's their body.
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire? I've tried.
What does the last text message in your inbox say? NOCELLULAR.
How do you feel about your life right now?
How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Once.
Do you hate anyone? Don't hate. Tolerate.
Do you talk dirty to people? Define dirty.
If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find? Phone inbox? Nothing.
Will you have a valentine this year? Next year you mean?, and probably not.
Last person you talked to on the phone? Mi madre.
Can you easily tell if someones fake? Usually.
How's your heart? Still beating.
Say you were given a drug test right now, Would you pass? Yes.
Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Yes.
What song is stuck in your head? Streets of Gold -NEEDTOBREATHE
Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? Someone with a perfect answer to why I should open the damn window for 'em.
Wanna have kids before you’re 30?: Yeup.
Name something you have to do tomorrow?: Brush my teeth.
Can you whistle?: Yes I can.
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back? My side or stomach.
What gets in your way of your sleeping? The thoughts of my jumbled up mind.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? Yes they are.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?: Yes sireee.
Do you think too much or too little?: Both. Way both.
Do you smile a lot?: I don't think I do.
Who was your last missed call on your cell phone? Psh psh, only losers have cell phones.
Whens the next time you will see the person you like?: I don't like anyone. Honest.
Are you happy with your life?: Not one bit. But I'll fix it, sooner or later.
Can you handle the truth? Probably not, but I can try.
Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?: Nope.
What was the last book you read?: Just Listen.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?: No.
Is there something you always wear? Undergarments my dear. They're a necessity.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?: Watching Elizabethtown.
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? Nobody. Gawd, not even my parents say that to me. How sad.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: I barely use the phone anymore.
Did you have an exciting last weekend? It was the fucking best weekend ever. Bite me.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yes I have.
Do you like yourself?: I love me.
Have you ever dyed your hair?: Nope.
Are you wearing a necklace?: Yes, yes I am.
Are you an emotional person?: I quite am actually.
What's something that can always make you feel better?: A good book.
Will this weekend be a good one?:I wish. I really really do.
What do you want right now?I want too much to name.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?:Yes I have.
Look behind you, what do you see?:AVOID IDENTITY THEFT. It's on a pamphlet.
Have you ever worked in a food place?Nope.
What would you name your future daughter?:EMMARAE. Actually, I don't know.
Any summer plans for 2009?:Uhm, I have no clue. MEXICO! Please. :D
Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?:Wake up. Shower. School. Sleep. Read. Homework. Sleep.
The last thing you heard?:"I just want you to know. I'm leaving to let you go" Does anyone know your Myspace password?:I think so. Probably.
Have you dated anyone on your top 8?:Nope.
1.11.08
Ftw
I hate the internet it's incredibly slow, and
today was su
ch a drag.
Apparently, Abigail Breslin is going to be playing Anna in the movie of My Sister's Keeper. I'm quite disappointed. Abigail Breslin is a good actress, but something about her I do not like. Oh, and Cameron Diaz is playing the role of Sara, although I have no idea how. I mean, Cameron Diaz is an incredible actress, she just looks too young to be playing the role of a mother of 3. As I recall, when I was reading the book, an image of her wasn't what popped into my mind as I visualized Sara Fitzgerald.
ch a drag.Apparently, Abigail Breslin is going to be playing Anna in the movie of My Sister's Keeper. I'm quite disappointed. Abigail Breslin is a good actress, but something about her I do not like. Oh, and Cameron Diaz is playing the role of Sara, although I have no idea how. I mean, Cameron Diaz is an incredible actress, she just looks too young to be playing the role of a mother of 3. As I recall, when I was reading the book, an image of her wasn't what popped into my mind as I visualized Sara Fitzgerald.
29.10.08
Agoobwah
Hooray!
We found clothes as our Halloween costumes. We look hawt hawt. Ohkay, so I'm completely anxious and jumpy righ' now. Oh, well.
No hopes. No hopes. No hopes. I need to relax.
I'm so happy righ' now though. Nothing can ruin my happiness for going to the mall today. We're probably going to the mall again.
We found clothes as our Halloween costumes. We look hawt hawt. Ohkay, so I'm completely anxious and jumpy righ' now. Oh, well.
No hopes. No hopes. No hopes. I need to relax.
I'm so happy righ' now though. Nothing can ruin my happiness for going to the mall today. We're probably going to the mall again.
28.10.08
Clean &Clear
and under control.
I'm currently watching episode 06 of season 02 of Boy Meets World. Who's Afraid of Cory Wolf.
I want you to know. I'm leavin' to let you go. Nice song.
My hands are in desperate need of lotion.
VOTE YES on prop. 8
I'm currently watching episode 06 of season 02 of Boy Meets World. Who's Afraid of Cory Wolf.
I want you to know. I'm leavin' to let you go. Nice song.
My hands are in desperate need of lotion.
VOTE YES on prop. 8
28 Days
Damn fine interesting movie that is.
Oh, and lunch was just--there's not even a word to describe it.
Oh, and lunch was just--there's not even a word to describe it.
26.10.08
Butterflies
LYRICS TO LITTLE THINGS BY LILY ALLEN
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed, watchin' DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You'd take me out shopping
And all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you'd make that face you do
There's no-one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed, watchin' DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You'd take me out shopping
And all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you'd make that face you do
There's no-one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
23.10.08
Aftershock
I still care, I still care a lot. I still have that connection, even if you don't. I still get bothered and ticked off because I can, and you have no clue.
I have so much studying to do, and I'm just taking a break, a very short break. I need to make coffee, but coke will do for now, I guess.
-World History
-Chemistry Honors
That's pretty much it.
I also need to clean up my room tonight. If I clean up my room tonight, I'll be able to sleep when I get home for probably an hour or so.
I don't know why I still care. It's not like I should care. I should be fine by now, completely over it actually. It should have never been so important to me.
Normal, actually, is what you make it. I could make what is now 'normal', but I don't make it normal, I make it an awkward stage. Before could have been an 'awkward' stage instead of normal. Isn't that interesting? I think that is quite the entertainment.
I think too much.
[Selfish (Asia Cruise Cover) - Passion] is a really good version of the song. I should really be getting back to my work, but then again, I just realized it's only 5 minutes to 9:00 and I have plenty of time to do homework.
I have so much studying to do, and I'm just taking a break, a very short break. I need to make coffee, but coke will do for now, I guess.
-World History
-Chemistry Honors
That's pretty much it.
I also need to clean up my room tonight. If I clean up my room tonight, I'll be able to sleep when I get home for probably an hour or so.
I don't know why I still care. It's not like I should care. I should be fine by now, completely over it actually. It should have never been so important to me.
Normal, actually, is what you make it. I could make what is now 'normal', but I don't make it normal, I make it an awkward stage. Before could have been an 'awkward' stage instead of normal. Isn't that interesting? I think that is quite the entertainment.
I think too much.
[Selfish (Asia Cruise Cover) - Passion] is a really good version of the song. I should really be getting back to my work, but then again, I just realized it's only 5 minutes to 9:00 and I have plenty of time to do homework.
I love these girls. They're the best.
22.10.08
21.10.08
19.10.08
Pink Lids
I need one more pink lid.
I'm getting bug bites everywhere. Bugs seem to be loving me like no tomorrow. I attract insects but repel people, how--satisfying. I went to the AIDS walk today, pretty fun yet boring. I got some condoms. I have a black, red, pink, and I forgo the other color. They're lubricated for my pleasure. Somebody get some soap and wash my mouth out, it's evil flowing out of my mouth like honey. EVIL.
When I eat mint chocolate chip ice cream, the chocolate chips just melt in my mouth. I'm hawt. It's hawt. Pathetically, I hope nobody reads this. It's my way of venting and saying what I should be saying to people directly, instead of indirectly, but I'm technically a loner--not really but bear with me here--and I have nobody to say it to--I do, but keep hanging on--and I'm a talkative one, yet shy. That was the most gramatically incorrect sentence ever.
I was thinking, and my mind came across the question, Who and what started the word kidding? So, I thought about it more thoroughly and I discovered, in my own opinion, the word kidding was derived from the word, kid. Kids, in my own opinion also, are quite the jokes-ters. So, people started saying "to kid around" to describe the attitude and actions of a child. Then, to be at least close to becoming grammatically correct, they decided to conjugate the newly thought of verb to kidding, such as running, thinking, loving, destroying, hurting, leaving, betraying, you get the picture. Now, who. That, I shall search on the internet using an engine that everyone refers to as Google. Nope, nothing.
Ohkay, while I was searching for my thought of the past nine minutes, I discovered for fact that conversate is not a word. Always assumed it wasn't a word, but now I know for sure. I lost track of the time and now should be lifting what is of my behind to migrate to the television and let my brain turn into complete mush by watching Monk and Law and Order.
Oh yeah, God is good.
I hate this instinct thing, it never goes away! :'/
I really do hate this instinct thing.
I'm getting bug bites everywhere. Bugs seem to be loving me like no tomorrow. I attract insects but repel people, how--satisfying. I went to the AIDS walk today, pretty fun yet boring. I got some condoms. I have a black, red, pink, and I forgo the other color. They're lubricated for my pleasure. Somebody get some soap and wash my mouth out, it's evil flowing out of my mouth like honey. EVIL.
When I eat mint chocolate chip ice cream, the chocolate chips just melt in my mouth. I'm hawt. It's hawt. Pathetically, I hope nobody reads this. It's my way of venting and saying what I should be saying to people directly, instead of indirectly, but I'm technically a loner--not really but bear with me here--and I have nobody to say it to--I do, but keep hanging on--and I'm a talkative one, yet shy. That was the most gramatically incorrect sentence ever.
I was thinking, and my mind came across the question, Who and what started the word kidding? So, I thought about it more thoroughly and I discovered, in my own opinion, the word kidding was derived from the word, kid. Kids, in my own opinion also, are quite the jokes-ters. So, people started saying "to kid around" to describe the attitude and actions of a child. Then, to be at least close to becoming grammatically correct, they decided to conjugate the newly thought of verb to kidding, such as running, thinking, loving, destroying, hurting, leaving, betraying, you get the picture. Now, who. That, I shall search on the internet using an engine that everyone refers to as Google. Nope, nothing.
Ohkay, while I was searching for my thought of the past nine minutes, I discovered for fact that conversate is not a word. Always assumed it wasn't a word, but now I know for sure. I lost track of the time and now should be lifting what is of my behind to migrate to the television and let my brain turn into complete mush by watching Monk and Law and Order.
Oh yeah, God is good.
I hate this instinct thing, it never goes away! :'/
I really do hate this instinct thing.
18.10.08
No Life
Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips?
Nope
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Coffee
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Not at all
Did you have a good day yesterday?
Parts of it were good
What's the reason behind your MySpace display name?
My parents were forced to give me a thing called a name? and since they decided to call me aleksisrae, I thought it'd be nice to call myself that too
What is bothering you right now?
A bother
Have you ever broken someones heart?
Idk, have I?
Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yeup, you never asked specifics
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
It wouldn't matter
Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Morninngg
Were you happy when you woke up today?
Nope, I wanted to smash the alarm
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Why should I?
Are you drifting away from someone you were close with?
Probably
Are you taken/single?
Ingles!
Is there someone you wanna let go of?
Yes and no? It's a complication
What's something that annoys you?
The buzzing sound people make, drives me crazy
Would you ever want to go back in the past?
I would, but don't mess with past, ruins your future
Have you heard a song that reminds you of anyone today?
Of coursee
Do you listen to love songs when you're down?
Who doesn't?
What will you do today?
I will sit in the same spot for the rest of the day
Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
Nope took it off
What kind of necklace is it?
Your body is a wonderland
Are you alone?
Too
Do you have any older siblings?
Noppe
Last time you were at the playground?
Hoy
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Asia
Who is the last person you IMed?
Kenny
What did you do yesterday?
I opened my fridge and go out some juice
Are you in college?
I'm in a collage
Last thing you drank?
El jugo de cherry? Rofl
Would you rather sky dive or bungee jump?
Both. Adrenaline rush needed
Last restaurant you went to?
Some place. Had a bit of hope with optimism on the side. Don't forget the cleansing refreshment
Ever been swimming in a lake or a river?
So dirty, all brown and gross D:
What is the last movie you saw?
In theatres? In general, we didn't finish Final Destination 3
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Count with my fingers how many of hours of sleep I was gna get
Where is your mother located?
She is located to the east of me?
What was the last thing you spent money on?
Starbucks
What is something your going to do a lot of next week?
Breathing, it's a daily thing
What is the next concert you're going too?
No se
What is your favorite channel to watch on the television?
TV turns our brains into mush
Look behind you, what do you see?
The word AVOID in big bold black (and red) letters
What were you doing at 8am this morning?
Standing in a coffeeshop
Do you do surveys often?
Life is so boring I have nothing else to do
Do you hate it when people ask you questions about the war?
Nope, the argument, or discussion if you will, gets interesting
Are you interested in politics and what's going on in the world?
I have my opinion. I don't scream it to the world. Ask me a question I have a response
Nope
Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Coffee
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Not at all
Did you have a good day yesterday?
Parts of it were good
What's the reason behind your MySpace display name?
My parents were forced to give me a thing called a name? and since they decided to call me aleksisrae, I thought it'd be nice to call myself that too
What is bothering you right now?
A bother
Have you ever broken someones heart?
Idk, have I?
Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yeup, you never asked specifics
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
It wouldn't matter
Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Morninngg
Were you happy when you woke up today?
Nope, I wanted to smash the alarm
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Why should I?
Are you drifting away from someone you were close with?
Probably
Are you taken/single?
Ingles!
Is there someone you wanna let go of?
Yes and no? It's a complication
What's something that annoys you?
The buzzing sound people make, drives me crazy
Would you ever want to go back in the past?
I would, but don't mess with past, ruins your future
Have you heard a song that reminds you of anyone today?
Of coursee
Do you listen to love songs when you're down?
Who doesn't?
What will you do today?
I will sit in the same spot for the rest of the day
Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
Nope took it off
What kind of necklace is it?
Your body is a wonderland
Are you alone?
Too
Do you have any older siblings?
Noppe
Last time you were at the playground?
Hoy
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Asia
Who is the last person you IMed?
Kenny
What did you do yesterday?
I opened my fridge and go out some juice
Are you in college?
I'm in a collage
Last thing you drank?
El jugo de cherry? Rofl
Would you rather sky dive or bungee jump?
Both. Adrenaline rush needed
Last restaurant you went to?
Some place. Had a bit of hope with optimism on the side. Don't forget the cleansing refreshment
Ever been swimming in a lake or a river?
So dirty, all brown and gross D:
What is the last movie you saw?
In theatres? In general, we didn't finish Final Destination 3
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Count with my fingers how many of hours of sleep I was gna get
Where is your mother located?
She is located to the east of me?
What was the last thing you spent money on?
Starbucks
What is something your going to do a lot of next week?
Breathing, it's a daily thing
What is the next concert you're going too?
No se
What is your favorite channel to watch on the television?
TV turns our brains into mush
Look behind you, what do you see?
The word AVOID in big bold black (and red) letters
What were you doing at 8am this morning?
Standing in a coffeeshop
Do you do surveys often?
Life is so boring I have nothing else to do
Do you hate it when people ask you questions about the war?
Nope, the argument, or discussion if you will, gets interesting
Are you interested in politics and what's going on in the world?
I have my opinion. I don't scream it to the world. Ask me a question I have a response
17.10.08
It's Too Late
for you and your white horse to come around.
I love the dreams that I can remember every single detail.
Ohkay, my dream this morning! I get called up by this guy, let's say his name is Evan (SEXY), when I'm like 24(ish), and him and I haven't had contact since now present, Sophomore year. He's like, "Aye, Aleksis. Would it be cool if I met up with you and caught up on old times?" So of course the good person I am, I say yes.
Background information:In future tense, way back in when him and I used to talk, he was an asshole to me and stuff.
So then I meet up with him, and he's carrying this little girl. My facial expression = O_o. The logical person I am, 'He's babysitting'. The luck I have, 'It's his kid'. So he tells me that he got a girl pregnant at 19, (idiot, right?) The mom left him with the kid and he's been raising his daughter since, although I didn't think he'd be the type to do something like get a girl pregnant right after high school. The little girl was so cute in my vivid imagination.
There's more to the dream, but I don't feel like typing it all out.
So I'm busy for the next few days. Yay! for me, because I really need stuff to do and it gets me out of the house. Best tv show of all time=Boy Meets World/Friends. Priceless.
Bratz dolls are quite the ugly, very disturbing to look at with their big eyes, full lips, and plastic caked on make-up. I shall ask the magic 8-ball if a wish that is near and dear to my heart will come true. I don't believe the magic 8-ball. My language for blogger is set on Tagalog, and it is quite the entertainment. I should be working on Math so I don't have to do it tomorrow or Sunday.
Lateesssss.
I love the dreams that I can remember every single detail.
Ohkay, my dream this morning! I get called up by this guy, let's say his name is Evan (SEXY), when I'm like 24(ish), and him and I haven't had contact since now present, Sophomore year. He's like, "Aye, Aleksis. Would it be cool if I met up with you and caught up on old times?" So of course the good person I am, I say yes.
Background information:In future tense, way back in when him and I used to talk, he was an asshole to me and stuff.
So then I meet up with him, and he's carrying this little girl. My facial expression = O_o. The logical person I am, 'He's babysitting'. The luck I have, 'It's his kid'. So he tells me that he got a girl pregnant at 19, (idiot, right?) The mom left him with the kid and he's been raising his daughter since, although I didn't think he'd be the type to do something like get a girl pregnant right after high school. The little girl was so cute in my vivid imagination.
There's more to the dream, but I don't feel like typing it all out.
So I'm busy for the next few days. Yay! for me, because I really need stuff to do and it gets me out of the house. Best tv show of all time=Boy Meets World/Friends. Priceless.
Bratz dolls are quite the ugly, very disturbing to look at with their big eyes, full lips, and plastic caked on make-up. I shall ask the magic 8-ball if a wish that is near and dear to my heart will come true. I don't believe the magic 8-ball. My language for blogger is set on Tagalog, and it is quite the entertainment. I should be working on Math so I don't have to do it tomorrow or Sunday.
Lateesssss.
15.10.08
11:11
You know what's completely hilarious? If people paid any attention to tiny details, they would know more information than they already know, although everyone knows so much as it is. Having so much knowledge means having so much power, and having that amount of power, is--. The word can't even be described!
The truth hurts, it just doesn't hurt as much as a lie. I would say that a lie comes from the heart, but then it doesn't. A lie comes from the stupidity of a person because they didn't have the heart to tell the truth.
The truth hurts, it hurts even more than a lie. I would say that a lie comes the stupidity of a person, but then it doesn't. A lie comes from the heart because they had the heart to keep from you what they knew would kill you.
I've been seriously chewing a piece of gum since I got home at 7:00. How, retarded. Oh, I have 'I believe' statements, paragraphs, and such to finish. Haha, Asia just imed me out of nowhere, like completely nowhere.
OMG!
So I look at my buddy list on AIM and I see "yeah", and Asia ims me out of nowhere
Haha. Crazy. Time for more homework and bed.
The truth hurts, it just doesn't hurt as much as a lie. I would say that a lie comes from the heart, but then it doesn't. A lie comes from the stupidity of a person because they didn't have the heart to tell the truth.
The truth hurts, it hurts even more than a lie. I would say that a lie comes the stupidity of a person, but then it doesn't. A lie comes from the heart because they had the heart to keep from you what they knew would kill you.
I've been seriously chewing a piece of gum since I got home at 7:00. How, retarded. Oh, I have 'I believe' statements, paragraphs, and such to finish. Haha, Asia just imed me out of nowhere, like completely nowhere.
xdbakanoASIA: stop thinking about him -_-That was priceless, like one of those MasterCard commercials.
alekzerae: o_o
alekzerae: creepy...
OMG!
So I look at my buddy list on AIM and I see "yeah", and Asia ims me out of nowhere
xdbakanoASIA: Why did you just look at his SN?!
Haha. Crazy. Time for more homework and bed.
Things To Do
-Finish rereading Someone Like You
-Read Just Listen
-Read Nineteen Minutes
-Rewatch Encino Man
-Watch Ferris Bueller's Day
-Watch Devil Beside You
-Watch Romantic Princess
-Read Tuesdays With Morrie
-Watch Tuesdays With Morrie
-Read The Five People You Meet In Heaven
-Watch The Five People You Meet In Heaven
-Read For One More Day
-Watch For One More Day
-Sketch [I sketch pathetically.]
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-Rewatch Encino Man
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-Watch Devil Beside You
-Watch Romantic Princess
-Read Tuesdays With Morrie
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-Read The Five People You Meet In Heaven
-Watch The Five People You Meet In Heaven
-Read For One More Day
-Watch For One More Day
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Amazing
I personally am no longer proud, which is completely ridiculous, but it's true.
It was a good reason, a real good one, because I'm in complete agreement.
It was a good reason, a real good one, because I'm in complete agreement.
14.10.08
If I Were A Boy
You're single, why?
Haha. 'Cause I'm quite the dramatic?
Who was the last person you gave up on?
Just someone, not important.
How easy would it be to get over the person you currently like?
I, don't think I like anyone.
Did you ever fall in love/like with a person you never thought you would?
Oh, absolutely postively.
Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
'Cause I wanted to.
Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
I honestly could.
Do you think the last person you kissed cares about you?
Err, idk. Actually, most likely no.
What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Nothing.
What was your worst mistake in your life?
No worst mistake. Just mistakes piled up on to of each other.
What friend do you tell the most to?
AsiaMarie.
What's something you really want right now, be honest?
I don't even know what I want.
Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
I never ate a butterfly before. :D
Who was the last person to disappoint you?
Haha. I don't even know?
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deep conversation?
What are you listening to right now?
"You don't care how it hurts, until you lose the one you wanted 'cause you've taken her for granted, and everything you had got destroyed. But, you're just a boy"
Guess.
How many kid's are you longing for?
A couple.
Latest you stayed up in the past week?
4 00 AM?
Where are you right now?
On a planet called...Theeeee Earrrtthhhh.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Uhm, not everryything.
How long can you go without your phone?
OMG! I completely forgot. It's been exactly 1 year without my cellular device! D:
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about?
Asia, and it's nonya.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
I'm supposed to be outside.
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
WARMMM.
What is the last reason you cried?
For me to know, and you to never find out.
First thing you did when you woke up?
Say, "Sht, it's hellla late."
Did you have a dream last night?
Yes, yes I did.
What is bothering you right now?
Mmm, just naathing.
Who's car were you in last other than yours?
Estuve en el coche de mi abuela.
How is life going for you right now?
It's bearable.
Do you believe what comes around goes around?
It came around.
Do you smile a lot?
Some people say I do.
Miss someone?
Oh, yes.
Are you happy?
In certain areas, yes.
Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?
Bottles? Nope. :D
Could you go an entire month without talking to your best friend?
Haha, no way.
Are you afraid of needles?
Pshh, why would I be afraid of needles?
Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yes, yes I do.
Is this year the best year of your life?
This is by far the opposite of that.
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
Uhm, sometimes.
Where's the person you miss most?
I don't know.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
El color de mis ojos es igual que el color de los ojos de mi madre y mi padre.
Do you give out second chances?
Everyone deserves a second chance.
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
I don't know.
Do you think age matters in relationships?
I think it depends on the age difference.
When playing truth or dare, which do you choose?
Dare, the truth sucks.
Do you like playing that game though?
Sometimes it's really cool.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
Haha, nah.
Haha. 'Cause I'm quite the dramatic?
Who was the last person you gave up on?
Just someone, not important.
How easy would it be to get over the person you currently like?
I, don't think I like anyone.
Did you ever fall in love/like with a person you never thought you would?
Oh, absolutely postively.
Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
'Cause I wanted to.
Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
I honestly could.
Do you think the last person you kissed cares about you?
Err, idk. Actually, most likely no.
What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Nothing.
What was your worst mistake in your life?
No worst mistake. Just mistakes piled up on to of each other.
What friend do you tell the most to?
AsiaMarie.
What's something you really want right now, be honest?
I don't even know what I want.
Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
I never ate a butterfly before. :D
Who was the last person to disappoint you?
Haha. I don't even know?
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deep conversation?
What are you listening to right now?
"You don't care how it hurts, until you lose the one you wanted 'cause you've taken her for granted, and everything you had got destroyed. But, you're just a boy"
Guess.
How many kid's are you longing for?
A couple.
Latest you stayed up in the past week?
4 00 AM?
Where are you right now?
On a planet called...Theeeee Earrrtthhhh.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Uhm, not everryything.
How long can you go without your phone?
OMG! I completely forgot. It's been exactly 1 year without my cellular device! D:
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about?
Asia, and it's nonya.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
I'm supposed to be outside.
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
WARMMM.
What is the last reason you cried?
For me to know, and you to never find out.
First thing you did when you woke up?
Say, "Sht, it's hellla late."
Did you have a dream last night?
Yes, yes I did.
What is bothering you right now?
Mmm, just naathing.
Who's car were you in last other than yours?
Estuve en el coche de mi abuela.
How is life going for you right now?
It's bearable.
Do you believe what comes around goes around?
It came around.
Do you smile a lot?
Some people say I do.
Miss someone?
Oh, yes.
Are you happy?
In certain areas, yes.
Do you have empty alcohol bottles hidden anywhere?
Bottles? Nope. :D
Could you go an entire month without talking to your best friend?
Haha, no way.
Are you afraid of needles?
Pshh, why would I be afraid of needles?
Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yes, yes I do.
Is this year the best year of your life?
This is by far the opposite of that.
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
Uhm, sometimes.
Where's the person you miss most?
I don't know.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
El color de mis ojos es igual que el color de los ojos de mi madre y mi padre.
Do you give out second chances?
Everyone deserves a second chance.
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
I don't know.
Do you think age matters in relationships?
I think it depends on the age difference.
When playing truth or dare, which do you choose?
Dare, the truth sucks.
Do you like playing that game though?
Sometimes it's really cool.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
Haha, nah.
12.10.08
Junk
food is the best.
So we went to Safeway today and I bought a whole bunch of heartwarming ice cream, brownie mix, cookies, and such to keep me company. I failed to mention the two bags of chips. While we were about to leave for Safeway my mom tells me that when I left the house with Hershey, Hazel goes so crazy she sneaks out of her leash and runs into the street, and we're talking about a big busy street. My sister goes and chases after her and my mom freaks out. So I've learned my lesson, pay attention to both dogs, although it isn't my fault I left Hazel. I was told to.
My new epiphany: Matter and Earthquakes.
They're like matter that matters. They matter. They're made of matter. You want to matter to them. It's a whole bunch of matter. OH! I made up a tongue twister:
I'm busy with homework and Never Been Kissed.
So we went to Safeway today and I bought a whole bunch of heartwarming ice cream, brownie mix, cookies, and such to keep me company. I failed to mention the two bags of chips. While we were about to leave for Safeway my mom tells me that when I left the house with Hershey, Hazel goes so crazy she sneaks out of her leash and runs into the street, and we're talking about a big busy street. My sister goes and chases after her and my mom freaks out. So I've learned my lesson, pay attention to both dogs, although it isn't my fault I left Hazel. I was told to.
My new epiphany: Matter and Earthquakes.
They're like matter that matters. They matter. They're made of matter. You want to matter to them. It's a whole bunch of matter. OH! I made up a tongue twister:
I miss being mattered by the matter who matters most to me.I'm currently watching Never Been Kissed. It's a really good movie. Drew Barrymore is really pretty in a non-obvious way. Get a clue. Hilarious. I need to get my jacket. It's not cold or chilly, but it's not hot either, and jackets are quite comfy. I was about to walk up and get my jacket when I see a spider next to the door. I'm not entering. I won't. I will not. I killed it. My number 208: He will kill spiders for me. I love pets. After Hershey and Hazel, I don't think I could go without a pet because they're such good company.
I'm busy with homework and Never Been Kissed.
Magic 8-Ball
It said, 'Forget about it.'
It made me mad. Stupid Magic 8-Ball. I shall see what it will say next.
I HAVE MY DOUBTS.
Omg, I hate this. This is ridiculous, no, not the Magic 8-Ball. (I know it's nothing but the truth, but shut up will you. Now I'm talking to the 8-Ball.) I'm crazy bored with nothing to do. I think I will read and sleep later. I don't want to sleep, but it's really cold and I don't want to stay awake either. It is currently 51 degrees where I am. I was about to place the word at after am, but then I realized it is incorrect usage of grammer to end a sentence wit h a preposition. I don't usually type or talk with correct English, but I have nothing to do but correct myself in times like this. I got yelled at yesterday, since today is already Sunday. I gave up on trying to convince my dad that he isn't always right and that sometimes he should let somebody other than himself talk. I tend to slouch in my chair when I'm on the computer, especially when I'm bored or tired. I think that my eyes are tired. I can see, but my vision is tad bit on the blurry side. I installed the new computer. "Hooray!" for me. I need to keep saying that to myself. (No. Not the "Hooray!") Don't hate, appreciate. Is it right that all inkjets save more energy than laser printers? Or is it just certain inkjects? I'm going to make my way up a short flight of stairs.
It made me mad. Stupid Magic 8-Ball. I shall see what it will say next.
I HAVE MY DOUBTS.
Omg, I hate this. This is ridiculous, no, not the Magic 8-Ball. (I know it's nothing but the truth, but shut up will you. Now I'm talking to the 8-Ball.) I'm crazy bored with nothing to do. I think I will read and sleep later. I don't want to sleep, but it's really cold and I don't want to stay awake either. It is currently 51 degrees where I am. I was about to place the word at after am, but then I realized it is incorrect usage of grammer to end a sentence wit h a preposition. I don't usually type or talk with correct English, but I have nothing to do but correct myself in times like this. I got yelled at yesterday, since today is already Sunday. I gave up on trying to convince my dad that he isn't always right and that sometimes he should let somebody other than himself talk. I tend to slouch in my chair when I'm on the computer, especially when I'm bored or tired. I think that my eyes are tired. I can see, but my vision is tad bit on the blurry side. I installed the new computer. "Hooray!" for me. I need to keep saying that to myself. (No. Not the "Hooray!") Don't hate, appreciate. Is it right that all inkjets save more energy than laser printers? Or is it just certain inkjects? I'm going to make my way up a short flight of stairs.
10.10.08
You Belong To Me
The Jason Wade version is absolutely heartbreaking in a sweet way. I loved that song in Shrek.
JASON REEVES-Just Friends
Listen to it.
JASON REEVES-Just Friends
Listen to it.
Silly me
I forgot to mention the updates on Twilight.
The new poster came out.
And the official movie trailed came out too.
I'm excited for the movie to come out, but part of me is scared that it will be a disappointment because most movies are once you've already read the book.
Oh yes, the trailer, I have forgotten again.
I am also excited about the song Decode by Paramore. It's perfect for the movie and the song is quite addicting also.
Coffee Crazy
I drank too much coffee and now I cannot drift into unconsciousness as I suffer with insomnia.
Milium
a small whitish lump in the skin due to a clogged sebaceous gland. Also known as whitehead.
Milium
a small whitish lump in the skin due to a clogged sebaceous gland. Also known as whitehead.
WordNet® 3.0, © 2006 by Princeton University.
It's interesting. Whiteheads can appear anywhere on the human body. The human body is covered with a protective layer, our largest organ, the skin. Because skin covers almost every inch of our body, whiteheads are able to form on almost every inch of our body. Quite scary actually.
It's interesting. Whiteheads can appear anywhere on the human body. The human body is covered with a protective layer, our largest organ, the skin. Because skin covers almost every inch of our body, whiteheads are able to form on almost every inch of our body. Quite scary actually.
Gates Of Fire
I had to write an epilogue for Gates of Fire, so here it is:
My writing is so amateur and lame, I know. It was the best I could do in a short period of time. If I recommend reading Gates of Fire, by Steven Pressfield, I would be lying. (I was about to say half-lying and half-telling-the-truth, but there is no such thing. A lie is a lie.) The book at times can be quite entertaining, but if you're not a fan of reading, "Don't read it!" Also, there is fairly large amount of profanity in this book. Beware.
TWENTY - EIGHTI’ve been curious about the woman that had been at the ceremony for the Spartan warriors. I was so intrigued by the difference of her eyes and reaction during the service. The captain had no idea what her name was or who she was, but I was determined to find out. I recalled when Xeones had mentioned his cousin, his star-crossed lover, Diomache. When I had first seen the woman at the ceremony part of me had sparked a fire, a fire telling me that it was her paying her respects to the one she truly loved, the narrator of the story once told to me.
I beared in mind that Xeones had told me that she last resided in Athens with a husband and kids. I set off for Athens with the consent of His Majesty, Xerxes.
“I would like to continue the story of the Spartan that you saved, Xeones. My curiosity lingers about Diomache, the woman he had loved and where his body lies, if it had not been the ashes brought by the Aeginetan vessel,” I told His Majesty.
“Go on. Find Diomache and bring her here,” His Majesty replied. His Majesty wanted to hear her story, her story about the Spartan that left her behind in Athens, her take on their childhood.
So, I went. I arrived in Athens and went straight to Alexius, a member of the Delian League. I knew he would be able to help find the woman I was looking for. A woman like her wouldn’t go unnoticed by members of Athens for so long, she had a past with the storyteller of the Spartans, and everyone knew it.
“My Alexius, under the ruling of His Majesty, Xerxes of Persia, I come to ask of your help in finding an Athenian woman named Diomache. I once was held here captive as your scribe for the transformations taking place in here Athens. Help me sir for I come with no harm,” I said in need of some information hoping he would help me.
“Scribe, under the ruling of His Majesty, Xerxes of Persia, why am I to help you find the Athenian Diomache, wife of Methodius? What is the purpose of your inquiry?”
“I come under the purpose of the story of the Spartan warrior, Xeones.” I told him impatiently, anxious to get to her, “ He was killed during the Battle of Thermopylae.”
“I understand. The lady Diomache should be at the courtyard of the temple, just follow the shore as Xeones did,” he kindly spoke pointing me the right direction.
I walked along the shore until we reached the temple, which looked just like a common house, as I remembered what Xeo had told me. Xeones’ life was the main of my life since I was given the job of recording his dictation.
I walked along the outer path, and roamed around the courtyard as a dam went to retrieve her for me. The same eyes hidden beneath the sheathing veil sauntered towards me, and I stared into them, into her soul and story.
“I received news before you came that a scribe under the ruling of Xerxes was in search of me. It is for the purpose of my young Xeo, is it not?” She bantered with a sly grin pasted on her face, though her eyes showed a river of sadness flowing through her.
“Was it you at the ceremony that—” “Yes. I was the one escorted out by the captain. Suicide mission of 300—”, she interrupted, her voice trailing away as she completed the thought with the tears streaming down her cheek.
I allowed her to explain her story to me, in greater detail than what I had heard from Xeo. Xeones knew important pieces of why him and Diomache could not have the love he wanted, but not each and every one. Ariston had been right. The essence of women’s courage is superior to men’s. Diomache’s strength amazed me in so many ways.
I had entered the courtyard at daybreak, and as Diomache finished, it came to my realization that the sun had set hours before. We sat in the light of the night sharing the details of our relationship with Xeones.
Her last words before returning back into the temple were, “Those were the last tears of mine for him, my lord, that the sun will ever see.” Her dear beloved cousin uttered just years before the same words, before the gods took him away, but I knew she would stay. The wife Diomache would stay on this earth with Methodius and her kids, the gods owed her that.
I stood, breathing in the cold, fresh air of the night and walked. His Majesty will be waiting for me. I knew the story, the story he had been as curious about, or even more. But, what would I tell His Majesty? The pain, joy, and private thoughts of a woman were not meant to spread to others; they were meant to stay secret, hidden, veiled like the face of the woman at the ceremony. I would leave it there, every detail that had been said to me. It was meant to stay there.
My writing is so amateur and lame, I know. It was the best I could do in a short period of time. If I recommend reading Gates of Fire, by Steven Pressfield, I would be lying. (I was about to say half-lying and half-telling-the-truth, but there is no such thing. A lie is a lie.) The book at times can be quite entertaining, but if you're not a fan of reading, "Don't read it!" Also, there is fairly large amount of profanity in this book. Beware.
9.10.08
Wow
The happy face is so...happy.6.10.08
High Hopes
When you meet someone, they're your other puzzle piece. They are what completes you, what makes you a whole. But of course, they're not perfect, and neither are you. They're not your perfect, exact puzzle piece, but they seem like it, or you wish, hope, pray that they are your exact puzzle piece because of the way they make you feel. So to make yourself precisely fit with their lifestyle, personality, their shape, you reshape by chopping off chunks of yourself once in a while and slowly shaving off small layers. Then, once you do sort of, never exact, seem to fit them, their needs, their wants, their everything, you look at yourself and don't remember who you once were. The person you're staring at is a stranger. The only characteristic that you're familiar with is the same eyes, which lead to the same soul, which tells you a story that you can recite by heart, your story. The someone you now call, "Your Someone", starts to realize that you don't fit them precisely, to the point that you are the perfect pair of puzzle pieces. They start to drift from what you've become, from the person you've shaped yourself to be just to match that someone, and as soon as they're gone and you find a new someone, you go through the same cycle, which can only be described as beyond helplessly ridiculous in the way that makes your heart melt into a pool of uncertainty. Sooner or later you'll find the someone that still doesn't fit you perfectly, but out of habit you change yourself, yet again. This time you recognize what you've become. That person you look at, wondering where you've seen her before, is the same person you looked at before you entered your journey, your unpredictable cycle. That person that you thought you had to change yourself, for yet another time, changed you back to who you were, your original person.Like my epiphany? It's incredible. I am completely and utterly amazed that that came out of me, out of the pessimistic depressed heart of mine.
Currently: Watching One Tree Hill.
"It's been a long year, since we last spoke. Where's your halo?"
-- For Blue Skies, Strays Don't Sleep
That is stuck in my head.
1.10.08
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