It's worth it

brothers. It's worth it friends. To know your maker, to lose your sins. Do you know that you are dearly loved.

PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.

Interesting weekend.

Ohkay, so I've had reoccuring dreams, what people may call nightmares. I don't consider them nightmares. I shall deem them to be the desires that I never want to happen. Odd, I know.


We went out to eat PF CHANGS. My grandma was like "I can't read the menu, it's too dark in here. In the car my grandmas (yes, plural) were talkin' bout how the back to the future ride was like a plane diving. How old that makes them seem. That ride gave me a headache tho. I'm in love with Wikki Stix. They're the best. Happy Birthday to my dad. &I could use a drink... of water!
I made myself a ring outta one of these.

Just One Thing

I have the most bewildering family.

Cool Like That

I'm chill like that. I'm like re-attached to the song: Where is the love? Haha.

Ohkay, so... my realization for the past 15 years:
1. I have too much pride
-No, I do not know what I have to be proud 'bout
2. I need to work on "skills"
3. Soften my heart
4. Pretty much, all in all-I need to gain humility

I'm just tryna keep my head up, baby.


I LOVE THIS SONG:
The Waves and the Both of Us - Charlotte Sometimes

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt

But I can't wait forever, boy

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my waist
There's no need to wait

I want the dance of the air
Run your hands through my hair
Releasing your breath
As I undress

But I can't wait forever, boy

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

Right Now (Na Na Na)

I just realized...grandma and grandpa are coming T O MOORO W.

Watched Twilight yesterday, it suckedx9876543210
My dogs got shaven
I'm sleep

Girl .mp 3

Bitch, don't fool yourself. You better realize this is life and you can't erase a tiny bit in the past. Tiny bits always come back to bite you in the ass. Keep your damn promises, especially the big ones. I'm one for being lenient, but thas' too cold for me.

You too. Don't make promises you know you'll never keep. They may mean nothing to you, but they meant a whole deal to me.

Like my gorgeous butterfly? Yes I damn right colored that shit.

It's like

one of those moments. The ones where you're no longer in your body, but you're not outside of it watching the view. You're there, but not there at the same time.

Dead and Gone

by T.I. feat. Justin Timberlake and Girl by Epik High have the same beat.

It's 10 45 and I'm currently watching Law and Order.

This is ridiculous. R------'s are following me wherever I go. They're on television shows. Books. Teacher's talk about 'em. They're all over the place. I'm being haunted by my past. It's not like you hear, see, talk 'bout filipinos everywhere. Ohmygawddd and all that is holy, Elliot got shot.

What a fu'in biter. Beat 'em.

Where is the love?

I just took like 8 aspirins and they haven't kicked in yet. Cheap drugs never heal the pain. How lame.

According to WordNet, love can be described in words; love is a strong positive emotion of regard and affection, it is an object of warm devotion, a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction, a beloved person, sexual activities between people.
Fascinating how simple that is?

I don't understand any of my homework. Everyone could use a paramour.

Benny and the Jets

Talking is so much faster that typing.

I bought new sheets. Light purple and regular purple sheets. Black and grey comforter. The awesomest. The comforter came with matching ACTUAL pillows. I need some of that woozy purple stuff.

Caramel Machiatto

Ohkay, currently I am at Asia's house. She drifted off into unconsciousness, supposedly, and I don't want to work on my journals. My topic is:

What was the most frightening experience of your life? Describe where you were and who you were with. What happened? Were you different after the experience, did it change you?

The problem with his journal topics is that they have to be at least a half a page long. So long, don't you agree?

ASIA WOKE UP! LATE. :D

Moan

The tomato ketchup is upside down and staring at me. I painted my nails a nice dark blue nail polish, but because they are dark, they look black. TREE WATERING was today, but apparently nobody really goes and it was boring, hot, and I wanted to go home.

We had spam today. Honestly, I have no idea how he could not like spam, or vienna sausage, or seafood for that matter. I mean, come on! You got to love sushi. Sushi, is just-it doesn't even need an explanation.

I want some more milk duds. After I run out, I will walk myself all the way to Longs, scavenge for Milk Duds, and snag the new Maybelline mascara. I heard it is quite wonderful. I saw the brush, nice------ is all I have to say.

Gawd, I've completely lost my mind. It's been over a month, and just all I have to say ugh. UGH! A BIGGER UGH! I will go on my search for more Milk Duds inside my Vans shoe box. I want new Vans.

One of these:

I'm really tired right now. I'm out of Milk Duds, apparently I need to do my Longs adventure very soon, most likely tomorrow.

...Smile

What a saddening comic.

OH, dialogue is so unreadable.

I'ma be up all night because I spent my 4-day-weekend doing absolutely nothing.

Into Your Arms

MY TO-DO LIST FOR THE DAY!
1. Sweep family room.
2. Sweep living room.
3. Wash red blanket.
4. Arreglar mi cuarto.
5. Shower.
6. Ask mi padre y mi madre.
7. Call Asia.
8. GO OUT! (HOPEFULLY)

All Again For You

1. "...the truth hurts sometimes...so do lies, though" -Just Listen
2. "You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a good-bye at all."-The Truth About Forever
3. "There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater." -This Lullaby
4. "If someone is really close with your, your getting upset or them getting upset is okay, and they don't change because of it." -Just Listen
5. "Bad is not an absolute, but a relative term. Ask the robber who used the cash he stole to feed his infant; the rapist who was sexually abused as a child; the kidnapper who truly believed he was saving a life. And just because you break the law doesn't mean you have intentionally crossed the line into evil. Sometimes the line creeps up on you, and before you know it, you're standing on the other side." - Vanishing Acts



Moan. Cute is what we aim for.

ICY HOT

only sometimes works. I think it's just my icy hot. There's like a damn crack in the cap. Emergency, big time. I need to go back to that idiot indiano doktora. My knee is like in desperate need of some medical help. Oh well.

I had a blast today, sort of, in a way.

A TASTE OF THE AWKWARDNESS IN MY NON-SENSE LIFE.

Milk Duds

are very addicting.


I'M SCARED AS HELL.

Spinning

"I'm going to miss your lips and everything attached to 'em"
Hahaha. Go Kristen Dunst.

Yes, I'm currently watching Elizabethtown.


I'm going to make hot chocolate, watch another movie, and check if I have any homework. I love my life.

Can you fill this out without lying? YES. Yes I can.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Flaming Hot Munchies
Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew? Haha, no.
Where was your default picture taken? It was take in my living room.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20? Mi hermana menor.
Can you play guitar hero? I can play it, just not well.
Last time you walked further than a block? The other day.
Name someone that made you laugh today? I don't know. I really don't.
When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends? Today.
How late did you stay up last night and why? 12 00, I was watchering television.
If you could move somewhere else, would you? In the blink of an eye. Get away from here.
Ever been kissed under fireworks? Nope.
Which of your friends lives closest to you? Jenn.
Do you believe ex's can be friends? Haha. Yes I do.
Do you like calling or texting better? Calling.
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper? I'm not a fan of Dr. Pepper. Diet or not.
When was the last time you cried really hard? That one day at church. 3
Where is your biological father right now? Parking his lazy ass on his bed.
Where are you at right now? Parking my lazy ass in front of the computer.
What bed did you sleep in last night? You mean 'Who's bed' and mine.
What was the last thing someone bought for you? My mommy bought me these Munchies.
Who took your profile picture? As in, my blog picture? That would be me.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? Me, Mel, Thi, & Asia.
Was yesterday better than today? They're equally crappy.
Can you live a day without TV? Yes I could.
Are you mad about anything? Yes I am.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? They're always worth it.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? Recently.
Are you a bad influence? I very well can be.
Night out or night in? Both.
Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person? Ahh, Both.
What items could you not go without during the day? H DOS O
Would you share a drink with a stranger? Nahh. The foold
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Wow, I don't remember.
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? They can pierce whatever they want, it's their body.
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire? I've tried.
What does the last text message in your inbox say? NOCELLULAR.
How do you feel about your life right now?
How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Once.
Do you hate anyone? Don't hate. Tolerate.
Do you talk dirty to people? Define dirty.
If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find? Phone inbox? Nothing.
Will you have a valentine this year? Next year you mean?, and probably not.
Last person you talked to on the phone? Mi madre.
Can you easily tell if someones fake? Usually.
How's your heart? Still beating.
Say you were given a drug test right now, Would you pass? Yes.
Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Yes.
What song is stuck in your head? Streets of Gold -NEEDTOBREATHE
Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? Someone with a perfect answer to why I should open the damn window for 'em.
Wanna have kids before you’re 30?: Yeup.
Name something you have to do tomorrow?: Brush my teeth.
Can you whistle?: Yes I can.
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back? My side or stomach.
What gets in your way of your sleeping? The thoughts of my jumbled up mind.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? Yes they are.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?: Yes sireee.
Do you think too much or too little?: Both. Way both.
Do you smile a lot?: I don't think I do.
Who was your last missed call on your cell phone? Psh psh, only losers have cell phones.
Whens the next time you will see the person you like?: I don't like anyone. Honest.
Are you happy with your life?: Not one bit. But I'll fix it, sooner or later.
Can you handle the truth? Probably not, but I can try.
Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?: Nope.
What was the last book you read?: Just Listen.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?: No.
Is there something you always wear? Undergarments my dear. They're a necessity.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?: Watching Elizabethtown.
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? Nobody. Gawd, not even my parents say that to me. How sad.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: I barely use the phone anymore.
Did you have an exciting last weekend? It was the fucking best weekend ever. Bite me.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yes I have.
Do you like yourself?: I love me.
Have you ever dyed your hair?: Nope.
Are you wearing a necklace?: Yes, yes I am.
Are you an emotional person?: I quite am actually.
What's something that can always make you feel better?: A good book.
Will this weekend be a good one?:I wish. I really really do.
What do you want right now?I want too much to name.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?:Yes I have.
Look behind you, what do you see?:AVOID IDENTITY THEFT. It's on a pamphlet.
Have you ever worked in a food place?Nope.
What would you name your future daughter?:EMMARAE. Actually, I don't know.
Any summer plans for 2009?:Uhm, I have no clue. MEXICO! Please. :D
Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?:Wake up. Shower. School. Sleep. Read. Homework. Sleep.
The last thing you heard?:"I just want you to know. I'm leaving to let you go" Does anyone know your Myspace password?:I think so. Probably.
Have you dated anyone on your top 8?:Nope.

Ftw

I hate the internet it's incredibly slow, and

today was such a drag.
Apparently, Abigail Breslin is going to be playing Anna in the movie of My Sister's Keeper. I'm quite disappointed. Abigail Breslin is a good actress, but something about her I do not like. Oh, and Cameron Diaz is playing the role of Sara, although I have no idea how. I mean, Cameron Diaz is an incredible actress, she just looks too young to be playing the role of a mother of 3. As I recall, when I was reading the book, an image of her wasn't what popped into my mind as I visualized Sara Fitzgerald.