SHAZAAM, 2009

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide like a scared little boy. I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure. So here's to everything coming down to nothing. Here's to silence that cuts me to the core. Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore.

Taylor Swift, man. Good music. Haha. I was like in the goddamn kitchen for friggin 8 hours! Thas' longer than a school day my dearrs. I made candy and a peach cobbler. The candy I'm never making again, the peach cobbler is a must. (x Haha. It was hella good, except less butter more peaches next time. Hellyeah. I made salsa and chicken skewers, too. When I'm old and wrinkly like my mah, I'll cook for my kids and say younggens, eat this sht and tell me it's good. :D Haha. I think Xierieney is PMSing at age 6. She's always so mad. Her face is so ugly. It's hilarious. Lost and insecure, you found me. You found me lying on the floor, surrounded, surrouned. Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you. Just a little late, you found me. You found me. I probably played that song for the whole 8 hours of kitchen time. Man, oh man. Hombre, ay hombre.

It'd be nice this year to start anew you know? Get rid of all the bitterness and sht in me, 'cause trust me, there's a lot. I just want it all gone. I wna feel fresh, not weighed down by the whole 2008. Things pile up you know? I don't know, but I swear taking all of this with me to a new start is just gna junk pile up. I gotta make change and just stop it with everything. I remember long time ago, I just thought it'd be easier to get outta here. Hating on school and everyone, it showed and I didn't care. I got over it. I can get over anything, yeah? People piss me off so much though. I have like no tolerance for anyone, unless you're highly important to me with an exception of family. Xierieney could use a slap in the face I swear. That child as the attitude of a mad cow, gawddammit.

Asia, I love that you spend time with Kenny. It makes you happy, so why wouldn't I want you happy? Like sometimes of course I miss you, but it doesn't mean that I hate when you're always with Kenny. You're my best friend and I know you'll always be there for me when I need you. I don't own you literally, FLY! FLY TO KENNY DANG! Haha, dammit if you don't read this I'ma kick you. -_-

1-"So Aleks, any guys lately?" 2-"Nah." 1-"How come?" 3-"Cause guys are assholes." 1-"Yeah, they are." 2-"So, true."

I hate those chills when you're not even cold. You're just sitting there and BAM! chilllllll. o_o I like the creek at Penetencia. It smells, it's polluted, it's deep in areas, BUT it's calming and secluded. Nobody chills there, except sometimes kids at nighttime that drink and smoke. Rofl. Dogs snore so much. I swear. So do little 6-year-old girls. I love Joshua Radin. He's awesome. Yeup yeup. Now I have nothing to say. Personal talk is creepy 'cause I know lowlives might read this sht. Haha.

My hair looked nice today. It waved in places I wanted it to waves. I'ma grow my hair out long. I miss it in a way. Then I'ma chop it all off again. Yeup yeup. My face is clearing up. Go Benzaclin. I hope it continues to work, unlike everything else I've used. Sht, the United States Postage thing looks like 007. o_o

HAPPY NEW YEARS! 2009 BABYYY.

Survveyy:
Age turned this year? 15

Best memory? Personal.

Worst memory? Two of 'em.

Did you stay in a relationship? Haha, funny that.

Great people you met? A few, all really great.

Longest road trip? San Diego to Vegas then back. Boring much?

Best place visited? Nowhere this year.

Worst place visited? Your bed.

Earned any new names? Hmmm.

Biggest challenge this year? A few.

How many moving violations? Huh?

How many parking tickets did you get? Nada.

How many subjects did you take? SIX.

What were your grades? 4.0 Bitch.

Did you moon a cop? Immature.

New best friend? Good times.

Person you wish you became closer to? Gawd forbid.

Any awards? Noo?

Did you sleep through your alarm? Got yelled at constantly for that.

Did you lose or gain weight? I think I'm the same.

What do you hope for 2009? Gift.

New love for food? New hate for food.

Kiss anyone? My lips are virginized.

Dance in the rain? Ran in it.

Have you changed? Biggo time.

How was your birthday? Got yelled at actually.

Any snow this year? Not hurrz.

Did you lose any family members? Yeup, but I barely knew 'em.

Did you disappoint anyone close? Too many people to count, especially a few special ones.

Did you sleep under the stars? F'in colddd outt there.

Pretend to be happy? No one ever believed me.

Did you keep your new years resolution? Probably not.

Did you leave the country? Sadly I did not.

Are you moving in the new year? Nah.

Did you lose anything expensive? TOTALLY. :/

Learn anything new about yourself? Nothing new, just caught my attention moreso.

Found out who your true friends were? Big time.

Made a change in your life? No joke.

Did you stay up till sunrise? Hella times.

Do anything you regret? Too many.

Go to any parties? Surrizle.

Gain any new family members? I think so...

End up in hospital? Nope.

Did anyone develop feelings for you? Asking me?

Favorite day of the year? None.

Least favorite day of the year? A couple.

Was 2008 a great year, an average year or a bad year? It was my down in the dumps year.

Where were you when everything was falling apart? All my days spent by the telephone, that never rang. All I needed was a call, that never came. I'm truly madly deeply in love, with that song.

Come Together

I have not gone one week since the end of September in which I did not blog. My blog could've been one sentenced, but I still blogged. Amazing. The Beatles are good. Well, I've got some reading to do, so update this lattteee.



Ohkay, so like I hella cleaned the stove like crazy at Turrett. Like f'real, I have no idea how some people could live like that. After going through the teenage stage of my life, I'm probably gna become some clean freak like my mah. Oh geez. Cinnamon Toast Crunch is a fabulous munchie. Rofl. OMG, ohkay so last time me and my mommy were at Safeway, we were like WTF, where the hell is al llll l the garlic bread. THEY ALWAYS RUN OUT, yeah? So then like when we got there, as usual there was no more left. So happens, I walk by to get some cheese like after 15 minutes and my loveely there are some, sitting waiting for me to snatch 'em. Like 6 were put out and I of course took one and placed it happily into the cart. (We haven't made chili in fo'evah 'cause I can't eat chili without the garlic bread) And I'm like FINALLY! YAY CHILI! I've missed my chili and garlic bread addiction. And I was like "Mommy, want another one? It's like a dollar I think" and we ended up buying 3. Haha. Funnnay. Or, it was funny at the moment. I really should get to reading for Espanol. Damn Girl is a good song. All-American Rejects are gna be making mucho moolah off their new album. It's good.

LATER.

Peach Cobbler

is extremely yummy. I'ma go make some this week.

I think it's fascinating how sites *coughcough YOUTUBE *cough would ask if we would like to watch a video, which of course proveides it, in normal quality or high quality. I, the high achiever, would appreciate the high quality over normal any day, if given the opportunity. Thank the Lord, my mommy is finally buying a new blender. I like cooking. It's fun. I would include baking, but there's a few people who'd have my ass for saying "I LOVE TO BAKE." Ahh, too late. Aww, a 3-year-old singing the National Anthem. Haha, how cute, He has the Southern accent too. Adorable. Man, I'm teaching my kid how to sing. I'ma have 3 strikes. One of 'em is playing guitar. (x Hahaha. Oh this was terrible. I had an Ashlee Simpson phase. I loved her, wanted to dress like her. Gawd, that was terrible too. -_- I like her hair still though. You gotta love Katy Perry for trying live. I have had so much leche flan, it's driving me nuts. Lily Allens is awesome.

Ohkay, so I had the most retardest dream. You don't wna hear about it though, it'll just make your roll your eyes and sigh 'cause it's one of those "I've heard it all before, SHUT UP Gawddammit" kinda dreams. Thank goodness for laxatives. Spike someones drink or food. Haha, neverrr take food from someone you don't trust. (; Haha. Smilllleeee. I love when British people say, "little", it sounds sexy. Haha. Everyone deserves a look once. I dub it "look once theory" Everyone deserves to be looked at from the point of view where you don't know the details. You see what is, and nothing more, not the inside story, not the past, or what truly is. Just for a tad second, 'cause when you do, everything looks perfect. That made no sense, ahh, when does anything have to make sense.

Flirtacious disses. (x Love that song. Oddly, half my blogs I say something about an awesome song. How, lowlife. My life isn't surrounded by music. I don't even showah or sleep with music on that often anymore. I swear, thas' all bad. -_- Ikid Ikid. Silence is golden. Trust me. Noise gets tiring. Music is noise, never said all noise is bad. Christina Ricci's face is the definition of the heart-shaped face. Yet...no magazine ever uses it for example when talking about hairstyles. I mean, for goodness sakes, she has a 6-finger forehead and has the tiniest chin. Don't mind my comments, she's gorgeous. I remember her in Addams Family. Man, she was creepy. Ashton Kutcher was lovely in the movie A Lot Like Love well not in the beginning part with his kid-like hair-do. Haha, I was watching it the other day.

My mom's home. Time to go ouut. Laterrr.

Mick, Mick, Mickity Mick.

He has a new case. It works well.

I turned my mom into a camera whore, and she won't let me youtube a video of her terrible singing. How sucky. I have Law and Order to watch and Blue Eyes is an awesome song. I should go find me a guy with the most gorgeous blue eyes to get lost in. HAHAHAHA. Man, that was good. Hahahaha. Wow. I think sometimes I have an odd sense of humor. Apparently my Auntie Bambi has a blogger, interesante.

" 'Cause blueee eyes, I just wna sing a song with you," preferably, a cute song. Droplets would be a sad song to sing with a significant other, don't you think? I let my mommy listen to tagolog rap and she was jammin' away. You gotta love the Cambas. They can entertain you fo' houuuurs. Man, I haven't blogged this much in a while. I should start vlogging. It's pretty fun. You may think you sound crazy, but I swear, at least one person in the world will find you quite the entertainment. Haha, even sitting there silently would entertain somebody 'cause they'll start laughing at your stupidness for putting up a video of you just sitting their silently. That better not be just me, or else I do have an odd sense of humor. Hershey is warming up my legs. He's been sleeping in my lap for probably about the past 30 minutes. I really do have Law and Order to get to and Xierieney is either falling asleep or waiting impaciently. Ahh, my deed has been done. The Notebook has been fed into Mick.

The heat is going, my socks are on, my shorts are hiked, my hair flung up high, and it's time for me to it the sacccc. Late.

TWN

Wow, the power of technology, and the unfairness of mother nature.

Know less, hurts less.
Damn, now I feel heckka bad.

clickity click
Fascinating how everything has to have a scientific explanation, such as why humans are so emotional.

You knooww?

Catch and Release! Haha.

"I depended on him too, look where it got me".
Spent until two in the morning watching that and I only got halfway.

Merrry Christmas

Man, gotta ruin my day. You just gotta ruin my day, more than you already have. And the thing is, you don't have to do much. Ridiculous. 'Cause most def it wasn't aimed for me. Nevvvah aimed for me. It was never okay. Argh, if this is how I am now, I don't even wna imagine myself like grandma. I'ma be losing it like 20x more.

Man,

I'm definitely not as strong as I wish I could be, not even close.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIADdtY9pQA

Sitting here, on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Say you feel the way I do

Bolting Blue

is a very pretty color. I've been awake for an hour and I'm completely bored. I can't just lay on my bed and not move, unless I'm sleeping of course. But f'real, I should be sleeping...sht. Christmas is coming, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas? Hellnah, doesn't feel a bit like Christmas. I'm hungry, but I don't want to eat.



I've eaten probably 4 cuties, there fruits so it's all good. I'ma probably go run for an hour.
Ho Ho Hopefully<3

You gotta love Wikipedia and the world's awkward chasing coincidences.

Gots some goals to go over.




Thank God for the upcoming new year, this one needs an end.

In-Class

I'm booorrreddd with one minute left.

I Am

going to be someone you aren't.

Rehab

I'm not stupid.
I question your character.

White Horse

Grr, I hate you.
There's truth and the whole truth.
I hate the whole truth.

Penelope

is one of the awesomest movies ever.

"It's not the power of the curse - it's the power you give the curse"

So I shall rephrase that for my own being.

It wasn't the immensity of the situation, it was the immensity that I gave the situation.

Err

I feel sick to my stomach.