SHAZAAM, 2009

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide like a scared little boy. I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure. So here's to everything coming down to nothing. Here's to silence that cuts me to the core. Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore.

Taylor Swift, man. Good music. Haha. I was like in the goddamn kitchen for friggin 8 hours! Thas' longer than a school day my dearrs. I made candy and a peach cobbler. The candy I'm never making again, the peach cobbler is a must. (x Haha. It was hella good, except less butter more peaches next time. Hellyeah. I made salsa and chicken skewers, too. When I'm old and wrinkly like my mah, I'll cook for my kids and say younggens, eat this sht and tell me it's good. :D Haha. I think Xierieney is PMSing at age 6. She's always so mad. Her face is so ugly. It's hilarious. Lost and insecure, you found me. You found me lying on the floor, surrounded, surrouned. Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you. Just a little late, you found me. You found me. I probably played that song for the whole 8 hours of kitchen time. Man, oh man. Hombre, ay hombre.

It'd be nice this year to start anew you know? Get rid of all the bitterness and sht in me, 'cause trust me, there's a lot. I just want it all gone. I wna feel fresh, not weighed down by the whole 2008. Things pile up you know? I don't know, but I swear taking all of this with me to a new start is just gna junk pile up. I gotta make change and just stop it with everything. I remember long time ago, I just thought it'd be easier to get outta here. Hating on school and everyone, it showed and I didn't care. I got over it. I can get over anything, yeah? People piss me off so much though. I have like no tolerance for anyone, unless you're highly important to me with an exception of family. Xierieney could use a slap in the face I swear. That child as the attitude of a mad cow, gawddammit.

Asia, I love that you spend time with Kenny. It makes you happy, so why wouldn't I want you happy? Like sometimes of course I miss you, but it doesn't mean that I hate when you're always with Kenny. You're my best friend and I know you'll always be there for me when I need you. I don't own you literally, FLY! FLY TO KENNY DANG! Haha, dammit if you don't read this I'ma kick you. -_-

1-"So Aleks, any guys lately?" 2-"Nah." 1-"How come?" 3-"Cause guys are assholes." 1-"Yeah, they are." 2-"So, true."

I hate those chills when you're not even cold. You're just sitting there and BAM! chilllllll. o_o I like the creek at Penetencia. It smells, it's polluted, it's deep in areas, BUT it's calming and secluded. Nobody chills there, except sometimes kids at nighttime that drink and smoke. Rofl. Dogs snore so much. I swear. So do little 6-year-old girls. I love Joshua Radin. He's awesome. Yeup yeup. Now I have nothing to say. Personal talk is creepy 'cause I know lowlives might read this sht. Haha.

My hair looked nice today. It waved in places I wanted it to waves. I'ma grow my hair out long. I miss it in a way. Then I'ma chop it all off again. Yeup yeup. My face is clearing up. Go Benzaclin. I hope it continues to work, unlike everything else I've used. Sht, the United States Postage thing looks like 007. o_o

HAPPY NEW YEARS! 2009 BABYYY.

Survveyy:
Age turned this year? 15

Best memory? Personal.

Worst memory? Two of 'em.

Did you stay in a relationship? Haha, funny that.

Great people you met? A few, all really great.

Longest road trip? San Diego to Vegas then back. Boring much?

Best place visited? Nowhere this year.

Worst place visited? Your bed.

Earned any new names? Hmmm.

Biggest challenge this year? A few.

How many moving violations? Huh?

How many parking tickets did you get? Nada.

How many subjects did you take? SIX.

What were your grades? 4.0 Bitch.

Did you moon a cop? Immature.

New best friend? Good times.

Person you wish you became closer to? Gawd forbid.

Any awards? Noo?

Did you sleep through your alarm? Got yelled at constantly for that.

Did you lose or gain weight? I think I'm the same.

What do you hope for 2009? Gift.

New love for food? New hate for food.

Kiss anyone? My lips are virginized.

Dance in the rain? Ran in it.

Have you changed? Biggo time.

How was your birthday? Got yelled at actually.

Any snow this year? Not hurrz.

Did you lose any family members? Yeup, but I barely knew 'em.

Did you disappoint anyone close? Too many people to count, especially a few special ones.

Did you sleep under the stars? F'in colddd outt there.

Pretend to be happy? No one ever believed me.

Did you keep your new years resolution? Probably not.

Did you leave the country? Sadly I did not.

Are you moving in the new year? Nah.

Did you lose anything expensive? TOTALLY. :/

Learn anything new about yourself? Nothing new, just caught my attention moreso.

Found out who your true friends were? Big time.

Made a change in your life? No joke.

Did you stay up till sunrise? Hella times.

Do anything you regret? Too many.

Go to any parties? Surrizle.

Gain any new family members? I think so...

End up in hospital? Nope.

Did anyone develop feelings for you? Asking me?

Favorite day of the year? None.

Least favorite day of the year? A couple.

Was 2008 a great year, an average year or a bad year? It was my down in the dumps year.

Where were you when everything was falling apart? All my days spent by the telephone, that never rang. All I needed was a call, that never came. I'm truly madly deeply in love, with that song.